It all started with reading posts from other bloggers about being pregnant, giving birth, or having wee little ones. Then the realization sank in that A) my kids are growing up so fast (almost 5 & 3! not babies ANYMORE) and B) having another child would not be an easy process for me. Then a sweet friend announced that she is expecting her THIRD! Her older 2 are very close in age as mine and I'm all thinking to myself "hmmph, I want a third one too!" THEN I was teaching a coupon class on Saturday and one of the ladies was telling us all about her ongoing adoption of her twin boys. You guys know what I did while talking to her? I CRIED. Cried because I want a baby. Cried because I know that at this point in our lives it is just not the right time. Cried because it would be so amazing to adopt a child who needs a loving family. Cried because I figured my husband would tell me I was "off my rocker" for even thinking about adding another child to our family. Cried because if I wanted to have a biological child I would have to go through hoops to make that happen. Geez, emotional wreck much?
This whole baby fever thing has really put me in a glum mood. For as long as I can remember, I've only wanted two kids. I'd always said that if I had a boy and a girl then I'd stop at 2 and that's exactly what happened. So, I figured I was done. Now I'm thinking, not so much?
Today my husband was sitting in the living room playing with our kids on the floor. I was reading a magazine in the recliner when he looks up at me and says, and I quote, "If I were half retarded I'd say let's have another baby." I know, so romantic and stuff. Y'all I looked over to him so fast with eyes so wide I think I gave myself whiplash. Never in a million years would I have expected that to come out of his mouth. You know what I did? I cried. Poor guy never saw it coming. He took me aside, comforted me, and asked me to tell him what was wrong. I told him the whole story. You know what he said? "You are off your rocker woman."
So for now, I'm praying that this "baby fever" will pass. Just for now.
Lacey
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Girl, I'm right there with ya! I have a five year old and a three year old and I'm sufferring from some severe baby fever. So many friends are pregnant! There are babies everywhere. My husband is the same way. I am BONKERS for wanting another little monster running around, but I'm not done. I feel like we are missing someone. I want a daughter so bad, as I have two little boys. . .maybe someday my hubby will have a moment of craziness and relent to let me do as I wish. Until then, I'm right where you are. For now. . .Keeping the fever at bay. :)
ReplyDeleteI've got the baby fever, too. It's so strong it hurts. Physically hurts :(
ReplyDeleteMy boys are 6 and 4. (soon to be 7 and 5, in October and December).
It seems like every other day just about one of my friends or a friend of a friend is announcing that they are pregnant.
My husband and I have actually been trying for our 3rd child for a couple years now, but no luck.
Oh, yes. I know what you mean! I actually thought I'd have six kids. Sounds crazy now, but my husband and I thought six sounded perfect. Due to medical advice (as in, Miss, lets not ever do this again, lets thank God you have two healthy kids and you survived) we stopped at two. But both of my sisters have had three kids....and both times when they announced a third baby on the way, I went home and cried like a crazy person. I don't know if that baby fever ever goes away! My kids are 15 and 17 and I still want another one. My husband thinks I'm crazy (until he holds a baby, then he knows what I'm talking about!)
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