One Year Later

I was a nervous wreck. The moment I'd dreamt about, wished for, played over in my mind for the last 7 years was finally about to happen. I was nauseous and my stomach was in knots. My heart was pounding and I couldn't stop smiling. 

Does my hair look okay? What should I wear? Where is that perfume?? Crap! I'm going to be late!!! I run out the door in a rush telling myself to stay calm, everything is going to be fine. 

Flying down the highway, I didn't know which was moving faster - my car or my pulse. I tried to distract myself with music on the radio, but it just wasn't working. It felt like the longest 20 minutes of my life. As nervous as I was, I just couldn't get there fast enough. 

Finally, I reach the parking lot and I turn towards the back where I knew he'd be waiting. I literally can not breath; so many emotions happening at one time and I"m on overload. But then - I saw his face - his smile - the one I hadn't seen in such a long time. My nerves were gone, my fears eased and a calm washed over me. It felt like it took me forever to get out of the car, but I know it was only a matter of seconds before I got out and ran into his arms. 

With his arms wrapped around me tight, my eyes began to well up with tears. It had been 7 years since I'd laid eyes on him or felt his touch, but in an instant I knew that everything I'd ever felt for him was still there - 10 fold. I felt like I was home.  

I finally pulled my head away from his chest to look up at him; I smiled and said "hi," and then he did the same. Those dimples - good, Lord I was weak in the knees! If it hadn't felt like 100* out that day we probably would have stayed just like that for hours. Instead, we decided to go in and eat. Neither of us were hungry and we mostly held hands across the table while smiling at each other like a couple of goof balls. It was indescribable being in the presence of my best friend and true love again. 

One Year Ago

If you had told me last July that we would be where we are today, I would have laughed you off of my front porch and then gone inside and cried because everything I have now is all I've ever wanted. One year later, Chris and I are happier than we've ever been. Our love and passion for each other is more intense than it's ever been. Being around him still makes my heart race, and his smile still makes me weak in the knees. We've made plans - big plans - and we've made steps to set them in motion. It's an amazing feeling to be living life with the one person who was made for me.

Being away from my soul mate for 7 years taught me a lot of lessons, but one sticks out more than others. At the end of the day, we're together and that is all that matters. Life isn't perfect and sometimes it even sucks, but if you have the one you love by your side - you'll make it - together. 

Christopher - I love you more than words could ever explain. After all we've been through together - both good and bad - I"m so very grateful to have you by my side every single day. I'm thankful for your love and support in everything I do. I'm appreciative of you as my partner in this life and as the father of our children. I'm lucky to have you to turn to when I need a shoulder to cry on or a good laugh. I'm blessed in knowing that you love me, all of me, and only me. I'm honored that you have chosen me. 

I'm looking forward to:

• many more mornings of making your coffee and packing your lunch (little love notes included). 
• washing many more loads of your laundry and making your favorite meals.
• many more confusing conversations about cars and their parts (and finally catching on!)
• many more "honey, I made it" text messages and many more "I love you's."
• random and last minute road trips.
• late night giggles instead of falling asleep.
• mid week lunch dates.
• not ever being able to surprise you, because you know me so well.
• all the plans we've made and the dreams we've dreamt - coming true! 

I'm looking forward to many more years with you.

I love you babe! Happy Anniversary!