Find Your Happy

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I was dreading going to the grocery store today; I'm not really sure why because typically I really enjoy it. I don't really think it was the grocery store I was dreading but the act of simply doing anything was annoying me this morning. However, I pulled myself together enough to throw on my yoga pants, make a list, and clip some coupons.

Once I was actually out of the house I started to perk up a bit, but the weather was dampening my spirit. I'm so over this bi polar weather we have in Texas, but that is a whole other topic. Anyhow, by the time I got to the store I was ready to "do this and get it over with!"

So I'm breezing through the store, in a hurry for no particular reason, when I start to notice the people around me. I mean, really notice them. There were many couples in the store today and I can honestly tell you that not one of them had a smile on their faces. They all looked angry and miserable.

I kept pace with one couple throughout the store, not on purpose of course. You know how it is, sometimes you just keep running into the same person throughout your entire shopping trip? It was like that and man, one time on the same aisle with them would have been more than enough for me.

The man had the most sour look on his face. He was obviously irritated and impatient. Many times I heard him snap at his partner and motion her to hurry up and get on with it. He stood there as if it were an inconvenience for him to be there shopping for food that he would probably be eating later.

The woman - this poor woman - she looked so sad and defeated.

I stopped right in my tracks and I pulled out my phone. I texted Chris: "I'm at the grocery store and noticing how other couples are treating each other and how unhappy they look and I'm counting my blessings...just wanted you to know. ILY."

Y'all - the people at the store today - I don't know their stories. They all could have just been having a bad day, but chances are that isn't the case. I say this because that used to be me. I used to be the irritated, impatient, sad and defeated woman in the grocery store every week. If I hadn't been in a bit of a "blah" mood today I probably would have never noticed these other folks. I would have just been in my own little world, happy as a clam. However, I'm so glad that I did notice and reflect on them and how it relates to me.

I'm so thankful that I don't live that life anymore. I am thankful that finally, after so many years I have found happiness again. I'm thankful that I had the courage to change my situation even though it was risky. I'm thankful to have someone who brings sheer joy into my life every day. I'm thankful that I can go to the grocery store with my significant other and laugh and joke down every aisle. I'm even thankful that he stops me in the middle of the aisles and kisses me like we're alone - even if it does make my face turn beet red.

Life is way too short to be unhappy y'all. Find your happy.

I'm pouring my heart out.